I have a new goal to write something every day...

...and look I'm writing twice! Today I started off on the wrong foot and it pretty much ran downhill fast. Why do I go beeserkko?? I yelled way too much at my sweet girls today and I am totally feeling the guilt now that they are sleeping. Does that happen to anyone else? I just can't see the big picture sometimes, I love them so much and wish I could stay more calm. They behave exactly like 3 year olds and a 2 year old should behave. I, on the other hand, act like a spoiled teenager who just wants to be alone or go get her haircut or go running in her new shoes, but can't because her three daughters have noses that are running more than Niagara. And I really don't mind wiping noses, but when they repeatedly feel the need to wipe their noses on my leg or my shirt or the couch, I feel my patience slipping away.

Audrey will at least get a tissue and try to blow and wipe her own nose, only w/o much success. Today after using about 10 wipes, she yelled "UGGHHH, come out boogers! Mom, the boogers aren't coming out!" I think she wanted me to put her boogers in timeout or something. And Lucy no less than 5 times today came up to me, pretending to kiss my thigh, when in actuality she would finish her kisses with a nose press and wipe. Sage is the runniest faucet, she will just run to me and throw her face into my shirt or pants and just swish her head back and forth as fast as she can. Usually the snot is running down into her mouth or she'll use her hand to wipe it up her cheek into her eyebrows and hair. She will also do that to the couch, the hanging kitchen/bathroom towels, the bedding, her sisters, anything really. I had to take all three to Walmart to get some snacks for the drive to Dallas tomorrow (we are going to visit dad) and that is never fun. Then to Walgreens to get yet another humidifier, we've gone through 4 now...then come home to do dinner/baths/bed. I just get so overwhelmed and this mean crazy yelling lady comes out. I won't even tell you the junk I've eaten today...I'm a mess.

Ok, I was a mess. Tomorrow I will try to be less of a mess. I just went to kiss and hug my beautiful sleeping girls. I am so thankful to be their mother. I am so lucky to have them, so lucky they are healthy and so lucky they are forgiving. I love them each so very much. Tomorrow I will try to feel honored to be covered in their sweet snot! At least they'll be strapped into their carseats most of the morning, but I'm sure I'll be covered by the time evening rolls around. Thank goodness, tomorrow is a new day. And thank goodness tomorrow we get to see dad.